bella_muerte08

so I was going to write about band and U of M and all that stuff...

but I think that's for tomorrow, seeing as it is 2 something in the morning.

I just felt the need to update because I am feeling so so so happy.

Hey everyone, I am in love.

Life has never felt so wonderful.

This weekend was refreshing.
I spent it with me myself and I. It was great.
I bought a Police cd and a Ben Harper cd. And i got a new album for my bag. Styx: Grand Illusion to be precise.
It was rad.
Being by myself continues to remind me that I'm okay with being independent. I don't rely on anyone else to make me happy, which will get me through any stage of my life.

Things are really piling up, but this weeks should be much easier than the last. Phew.

I'm about 90% sure i'm going to visit Mo at msu on friday. =) =) =)
And then home. Finally.

Life is good.
Can't wait to see what this week brings.

My computer froze.
Everything I was writing is gone now.
I'm not writing it again.
Goodbye.

Went to see Talladega Nights the other day with people.  I had a butt load of fun.

Started school.  I'm not thrilled.  The only thing I really missed was band class.  Thank God I have it 6th hour and no other time of the day.  I've realized that what everyone says about Junior year is true.  I can already tell that this will be my toughest year yet.  I don't know how I'm going to balance everything.  I'm sad that I might have to drop some of my extracurriculars.  I hope it won't come to that, but it is a likely possibility.  Why can't life go back to being simple?  I just want to come home from school for one day and not have to do anything.  

I think I need someone to help me figure out how I'm going to get through this year without killing myself.  What I think I need most is my friends.  

What are we living for?  I haven't figured that out yet.  The only thing that is definite in my life is God.  I'm working on strengthening my relationship with Him first, because without that, I am nothing.

I'm so...stressed.

And its only the second day......

I went to my dad's yesterday and celebrated Megan's 15th birthday. Happy Birthday!!!!  We had pizza from Paliani's and ice cream cake from Baskin Robbins.  YUM.  Andrea Thompson is a funny girl.  I like hanging out with her.  We sang children's songs at Megan's party last night.  Fun times.  

SexyBack is my new favorite song on the radio.

I went to my grandma's last night.  I stayed for a long time, just chatting with my grandparents.  My mom had to call their house to send me home.  It was 10:30.

It 's been a good few days.  

P.S. The Canadian Brass are really awesome.

I had a fabulous day today/yesterday.  

Kaleigh came over and spent the night.  We went to Archies and met up with Kyle and Yaz.  It was really nice seeing them.  I had a delicious ice cream sundae.  Then we came back and watched 3 hours of Nip/Tuck which is a pretty addicting show.  If you have never watched Nip/Tuck, watch it.  It's on FX usually late at night.  

Kaleigh and I woke up and my mom gave us chores to do.  Yes, both of us.  Kaleigh is like my mom's long-lost daughter.  Then we went to the mall and I got 2 shirts.  They are super cute.  Kaleigh and I then wandered down to the book store and read over half of a book called 'Post Secret'.  I know Danny has that book.  It is very good.  We also found books about pirates and also many magazines with Johnny Depp in them.  We were both VERY happy about that.  Then we went to Goodwill, but there wasn't much to be found.  Oh yeah, and I swear to the holy lord that the cashier there was a man, even though it was a woman.  Can you say 'sex change'?  She/He had manly hands/body/hair (dike haircut) and it was strange.  I was like "mom, I think the cashier is a man," so she looks back and stares for just enough time that people would notice that she was staring at the he/she.  So then we left in agreement that the 'woman' was a former man.  

On the way home from goodwill, my mom suggested that we got to Kal's for swimming due to the blistering heat.  So we did.  We actually ended up staying for burgers and s'mores.  It was a good time.  I had bleu cheese for the first time in my life and it was pretty intense cheeseage.  I liked it.  By the way....I love swimming.  Yeah....

I also forgot to mention that yesterday I went to the mall with APB and the to Red Robin and then to Borders.  I bought a Dane Cook CD at borders.  Me = happy.  And I went to the grocery store with my mommy after that and we bought good stuff.  

My kitty is lying at my feet.  Is that the correct use of lying?  Or is it laying?  I thing laying is placing something somewhere, like 'I lay the pencil on the table.'  

Okay, well I think I'm done writing.     

I'm watching Se7en.  I like it so far.  I think Morgan Freeman is my favorite actor of all time.  He is awesome.

okay, well that's all that has happened lately.

WAIT!  Just Kidding.  

I started reading this book by Harlan Coben called Gone for Good.  It's okay so far.  I'm sure it will get better as I keep reading.

I also went on a bike ride.

Okay, I'm done.

P.S. I love APB.

NEW ICON!!!!

Hot, isn't it?

Pirates 2 was simply stunning.  I can't wait for the 3rd one!!!!!  ARRGGGHHH!

I've had a bad day today.  I want a hug.

Don't feel like writing now....will write later.

I love a boy.  He is wonderful.

 

The end.

Pre camp was really fun. I just realized today how much marching band means to me and how much I've missed it. To anyone that is in it, you are my family and I love you so much.

The Freshmen are cool. I want to get to know them better.

I never want to grow up. As much as I say I hate school, I never want it to end. At least summer.

I never want to leave this behind.
I never want to say goodbye to my friends.
I never want to regret decisions I make.

The end.

P.S. I'm glad you fixed your lj.

So I am faced with a question.

A question that I don't expect to get honest answers to.







If you have an honest comment you wish to make about me, good or bad, please do so. I would sincerely appreciate it.

School=asshole and a half

I just want it to be over with!!!!!

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'm sick of this.

I wish I knew a better way to handle stress.





On a lighter note, I got my license.

Lauren passed her driving test. That means you'll be seeing me around in my pimped out ride pretty soon.

I'm happy.

This morning, I went to breakfast with APB and we had a wonderful time and a yummy meal. I was happy. Spent the afternoon with my dad...we drove around and listened to classic rock. It was actually super fun. Later, I spent time with my dear stepsister and watched best of Chris Farley. It was freakin hilarious. Then I went to Kal's and we hung out w/ Andy and Josh. We walked to ice cream junction and then decided we didn't want ice cream, so we just walked back.
Andy: NO, you don't want to buy kittens from someone who puts and apostrophe in it! (kitten's)
Anyways, then we came back and hung out for a few hours. It was a lot of fun.

I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to feel.
But I do know that for now, I am...speechless.

Oh dear... Seniors Last Day....all I have to say is:

I love you all. You will all be brilliant in the future. Take time to look at the past, but don't dwell on the past so much as to overlook the opportunity of the future.

Okay, well, i'm out.

♥Love♥

Prom was GREAT! I had a butt-load of fun. Dinner was amazing (specially those Strawberry Daquiris (virgin of course)) Mr. Schuster walked me in, so I was happy. He thought I looked nice. Aww. Everyone looked SO good. I'm happy about last night.

I'm glad I got to spend it with you.

Thursday is approaching much too fast...I'm not ready to have a cry-fest.

Tomorrow is my sweet sixteen. I'm sad that all you seniors won't be there. I'll miss you sorely.

Okay, I'm going.

Desperate Housewives finale tonight! WATCH IT!

I'm slightly angered.

Things never seen to go my way. Kind of ties into that whole existentialism we're learning about...things happen without rational explanation. I don't know if I believe that philosophy.

I think I have an obsession. And I don't mind it.
Sometimes it's the only thing that I can depend upon.
Don't worry, it's nothing dangerous, quite the contrary, actually.



This song makes me cry.

Today was...exhausting...i didn't even do anything, and I was tired allllll day.

Turned in my letter late...oh well...

Excited for Prom. We'll see how good it actually is on Saturday. I'm excited to get my hair done and to look like a princess. I love feeling special and getting myself ready just so I can see the look on that one person's face...because thats all that matters...just that look.



I wish life didn't have to be so complicated.

I miss you.